sometimes your tears become less to express your pain

everytime when i see anyone ,i just smile so that my pain doesn't reflect my pain,i feel cry but can't cry since if i start i can't stop myself ,life becomes to heavy when your dear one's gives you pain day by day .i try myself to be calm,feel happier smilely. so that my emotions can't get on anyone.it feels sad when you want to feel happy but you are not able to do that,life challenge me daily but i defeat it by just one smile,whats a big deal when i feel hurted daily,every day my heart brokes due to some reasons, i feel cry,ask god to either give your support to get out of it or just take me with you... but this can't be helpful because there are some people that will cry for me,miss me,who sees me as a precious as gold,to whom i am the happiness and for those i can't quit ....i will fight with my life let's see how much this life can torture me,trouble me,make hell my surrounding s...but i will not quit let the  life play its game and i will play my game....,i will defeat it by smiling with my whole heart,i will chearup myself in every aspects of my life no matter what the situation is? ,i will cry because crying is not my weakness its my strength because after every cry i feel relaxed, calm,energetic and light. one day will be mine and that particular day i will smile at those who thinks i am zero. by love you can win many heart's, make your family happier ,make healthy environment and love needs no boundaries... so spread love,be happy and defeat your weakness and light a lamp of a new hope,new faith and new life.....love you all ......be happy,be positive,💞